last chance
This influence at the age of forty or forty-one marks a period of major transition in your life. This is the crisis of middle age when you have to come to terms with a number of realizations that may not all be pleasant. For example, even though you are not very old, you are no longer young. Have you accomplished or begun to accomplish what you wanted when you were younger? If you have, was it an appropriate accomplishment for you? Are you happy with your close relationships, your marriage, your work?
Many people encountering this influence discover that the answer to several of these questions is no. If this is your situation, you may become seized with a feeling of urgency that you have only a short time to correct the problem. Consequently you may begin to act rather disruptively and quickly. You may leave a marriage or an old job and take up a lifestyle quite different from your earlier one. Your friends are likely to be rather shocked at the change. You may spend more time with younger people, for their youth is a symbol of the opportunities you feel you have almost wasted. This seems to be your last chance to take advantage of those opportunities.
It is also quite possible that you make none of these drastic changes. If you have taken advantage of opportunities right along and have not allowed your life to become prematurely old and rigid, this time will not be so upsetting or disturbing. You will experience the real meaning of this influence—a climax of the direction your life has taken since childhood and a shifting of direction toward the issues you must confront in old age.
If you have been successful in your dealings with the outside world, you will continue to be, but now it will have to mean something in terms of your own life and perception. You will not be able to live for some external purpose, the purpose must come from within. If you don’t reorient yourself, your life will become hollow and meaningless, regardless of what you accomplish from here on.
Uranus Opposition Uranus, end of March 2011 until 18 February 2012
February 17th, 2012 at 9.42 pm
Please remember, when you are evaluating the pros and the cons of this messy business of existence, that when it comes to the torrid part, many are called, but few are chosen. If words be true, you would appear to dwell among the chosen. No small consolation in a universe as severely unsympathetic as our own.
February 21st, 2012 at 12.19 pm
Jennifer, have you tried natural psychoactives such as mushrooms or ayahuasca?
And those socks are hot as fuck.
February 22nd, 2012 at 9.48 am
Jennifer,
Ok, I have spent much of the past 3 days and nights reading your blog. While my wife has never been a worshipper of the written word (probably a good thing), she does enjoy anything with a strongly vaginal point of view and therefore indulged me as I read several passages to her. Some heartbreakingly beautiful stuff. We then made a quick visit to Sock Dreams and had sex in anticipation of the sex we will have when the socks actually arrive.
You expect way too little from your men. Please expect more and do not tolerate anything that falls under that expectation.
You don’t need your manuscript to be accepted by anyone. This is just more fucking approval seeking…and seems to be high on the list of your other poet goddess friends as well. I don’t understand this. You don’t have to stand outside Gutenberg’s house, begging to use his printing press. If you have something you feel is worth publishing…publish it yourself. Trent Reznor from Nine Inch Nails wrote an essay years ago describing the change of his business model that applies to all artists. The comedian, Louis CK, just independently released his latest DVD at $5 a pop and gave half to charity. Check out Kelly’s model of 1,000 True Fans.
You have made a positive impact on my life over these past 3 days…thank you.
John.
Internet Stranger and Fan
February 22nd, 2012 at 12.54 pm
John, thank you most sincerely. You are my very favorite kind of Internet Stranger. Also, you have good taste in socks. And wives.
So…yeah. Acceptance. And “Publication – is the Auction / Of the Mind of Man – ” etc. Friends and I have been tallking for the last couple of years about starting a small press (which is such a cliché for a poet even to SAY, but it’s true) and maybe we will actually get that going this year or next. We’ll see. On verra.
Mostly I’m just glad that you’ve enjoyed reading. And I’ll check out the resources you mention. ¡Abrazos!
February 22nd, 2012 at 12.55 pm
PS in re: hallucinogens: do you mean for treating depression/mood disorder stuff, or just for fun? (But actually either way, no. Though my current companion has offered to hook me up.)
February 23rd, 2012 at 10.13 am
Definitely talking about depression and other demons. Since you have tried so many types of treatment, I was interested on your take. I guess I like the idea of a vine and leaf possibly holding an answer rather than little tablets being spit out by the world’s largest corporations…seems like a more goddess-y way to go!